Thanks MindBodyPT, I do appreciate your response. I don't share your confidence in the powers of neuroplasticity, however. I know it's a trendy topic, but I think this as yet still very very little understood phenomenon has given so many new-agey people the green light to say all sorts of far-fetched things about the power to change the brain. Some things can't be un-wired, re-wired, or unlearned. Try unlearning the word "chair" for example. You can spend the rest of your life practicing unraveling that circuit and it's not going to happen. Chronic pain causes permanent changes to the brain, like the way chronic alcoholism changes the brain. Alcoholics who stop drinking still have those brain changes, with very little restoration. This stuff terrifies me. I know that you're very confident about the tms-diagnosis and prognosis, and your confidence is infectious but at this point I can't seem to get any kick from assurances. I have lost faith. I don't even believe people who say this has worked for them anymore ... so many people saying "I'm still working on it and getting better all the time" ... for 15 years ... and they're still on this forum every day. I'm sorry for bringing so much negativity into this. I'm down in the dumps.