MelissaJ93
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Hi,
I'm not sure exactly how this will help, but my mom is convinced I have TMS. I am 22, and I have had chronic back pain for 7 years...it has moved from my back, to neck..shoulders..hip...it feels like it's everywhere. I just started reading "healing back pain". I have yet to go through and read the whole thing. My history is this:
While I was in highschool (11th grade) I played soccer. I was the goal keeper and during one game I went for a ball and hit my head. I blacked out for a minute then came back and was sore. The next morning when I woke up I had a stiff neck, and a sever headache. I spent most of my time sleeping for the next couple of weeks. My mom suggested I go to her chiropractor, so I went. He told me I had scoliosis. I had to quit soccer (luckily I hurt myself at the end of the season). So the chiropractor told me I had scoliosis so I quit basketball and the next soccer season I wasn't able to play soccer. So at 12th grade all my physician activity slowed down. I wasn't playing competitive sports which I loved, and was told I couldn't run on the street due to the impact.
Fast forward to college. I didn't try out for any sports because "I couldn't do them with scoliosis". I wanted to be a physical therapist and while I was in college and ready to start the PT program (I had done my "shadowing at a PT office) I had my final meeting with the program and felt like I should discuss my health and if it was something I could do. They told me since I had chronic Back pain and some days could barely get out of bed...I shouldn't go to school for PT. I was crushed, but obviously I couldn't be a PT. if I couldn't even go for a mile walk without being in pain how could I have a job where I'm on my feet all day? So I decided to just use my credits and graduated with a general studies associates degree.
I've been going to my chiropractor for 7 years...and the pain just keeps getting worse and worse. So just two weeks ago I decided to stop going to him, I went to a primary doctor and they led me to a physical therapist (everything comes full circle lol). I'm in my second week of PT and I'm sad. I really like my Pt, she's working hard and trying to figure out what's wrong with me. But my primary and PT both say my scoliosis isn't really bad, and it shouldn't be causing me this much pain. But I'm always in pain. I'm always sad. I'm always discouraged.
This is not who I want to be, I've always viewed myself as being a strong independent woman but I feel that slowly changing. I'm happy, I am blessed with a wonderful family and things could be so much worse. But the pain is crippling. I miss out on social events with my friends, I spend most of my time indoors playing video games or watching sports because I can't move with out shooting pain. Even just sitting down I'm in pain. I feel like the pain is defining me. I can't work, I can't exercise, I can't have quality of life. And I'm tired of the "cants" in my life. I've never posted on forums like this, but I would be great to talk to people who can relate.
Trust me, I am not a sad negative person...but I'm at my wits end. I'm 22 and I just wish I could get to the point where I can move and be active again. I just recently got engaged and I'm worried my wedding will come and I want be able to move and enjoy my wedding. I just consistently doubt myself and I feel like my body is getting worse and worse.
I'm not sure exactly how this will help, but my mom is convinced I have TMS. I am 22, and I have had chronic back pain for 7 years...it has moved from my back, to neck..shoulders..hip...it feels like it's everywhere. I just started reading "healing back pain". I have yet to go through and read the whole thing. My history is this:
While I was in highschool (11th grade) I played soccer. I was the goal keeper and during one game I went for a ball and hit my head. I blacked out for a minute then came back and was sore. The next morning when I woke up I had a stiff neck, and a sever headache. I spent most of my time sleeping for the next couple of weeks. My mom suggested I go to her chiropractor, so I went. He told me I had scoliosis. I had to quit soccer (luckily I hurt myself at the end of the season). So the chiropractor told me I had scoliosis so I quit basketball and the next soccer season I wasn't able to play soccer. So at 12th grade all my physician activity slowed down. I wasn't playing competitive sports which I loved, and was told I couldn't run on the street due to the impact.
Fast forward to college. I didn't try out for any sports because "I couldn't do them with scoliosis". I wanted to be a physical therapist and while I was in college and ready to start the PT program (I had done my "shadowing at a PT office) I had my final meeting with the program and felt like I should discuss my health and if it was something I could do. They told me since I had chronic Back pain and some days could barely get out of bed...I shouldn't go to school for PT. I was crushed, but obviously I couldn't be a PT. if I couldn't even go for a mile walk without being in pain how could I have a job where I'm on my feet all day? So I decided to just use my credits and graduated with a general studies associates degree.
I've been going to my chiropractor for 7 years...and the pain just keeps getting worse and worse. So just two weeks ago I decided to stop going to him, I went to a primary doctor and they led me to a physical therapist (everything comes full circle lol). I'm in my second week of PT and I'm sad. I really like my Pt, she's working hard and trying to figure out what's wrong with me. But my primary and PT both say my scoliosis isn't really bad, and it shouldn't be causing me this much pain. But I'm always in pain. I'm always sad. I'm always discouraged.
This is not who I want to be, I've always viewed myself as being a strong independent woman but I feel that slowly changing. I'm happy, I am blessed with a wonderful family and things could be so much worse. But the pain is crippling. I miss out on social events with my friends, I spend most of my time indoors playing video games or watching sports because I can't move with out shooting pain. Even just sitting down I'm in pain. I feel like the pain is defining me. I can't work, I can't exercise, I can't have quality of life. And I'm tired of the "cants" in my life. I've never posted on forums like this, but I would be great to talk to people who can relate.
Trust me, I am not a sad negative person...but I'm at my wits end. I'm 22 and I just wish I could get to the point where I can move and be active again. I just recently got engaged and I'm worried my wedding will come and I want be able to move and enjoy my wedding. I just consistently doubt myself and I feel like my body is getting worse and worse.