Hello I don't know how to get better. I for sure have TMS. Had started with anxiety and depression many years ago but managed until two years ago when it all got a lot worse. Anxiety went off the scale after a fearful docs appointment and then an MRI scan all ok. Soon after a family huge trauma began. My son, long story but they had a baby that wasn't well during pregnancy and baby died at 5 mths old last March 2019. The whole pregnancy and life of baby very stressful and traumatic. After funeral my son has become estranged and not seen him since funeral in April 2019. I am heartbroken and gradually going downhill emotionally and physically and the fear that I have now lost my son forever is on my mind 24/7. The pain emotionally is breaking me a bit more everyday and the body pain intensified too. I can't make my son see me, we text from time to time, but the heartbreak I am feeling is slowly killing me. He lives 4 hours away from me so can easily stay away from me. I know he is grieving but has all her family support around him which is good of course but I am so alone with it all. As I can't resolve this I can't see how i can ever be better. Please can anyone help me? He has made it clear he doesn't want to see me or speak on phone. He has been away with girlfriends family few times but won't travel to see me. How can i move on with my life? I have completely lost my life and almost housebound with pain in both ways.