Hello to you, my future friends! My first experience of Dr. Sarno’s work was the John Stossel video. I bought his books and have been reading and journaling and releasing RAGE for twelve days now. I have no doubt whatsoever that this is what I’ve been looking for during all my years of suffering Chronic Fatigue and debilitating Depression! I am feeling oxygen returning to my muscles - life! I have so much to share I can’t type it all. This is a summary of my story: With depression I told my mother when I was age 7 that I wanted to die. In 1971 in my world things like this were not talked about in my world. Nor was there much medical ‘help’ for me at that time. I don’t know when my father’s abuse started but I know I lived in terror since at least she 5. I sat at the top of the stairs one night when I was supposed to be asleep and heard my father talking softly to my mother about me. He said ‘I don’t know, sometimes I want to kill her’. So began my deeper fear that I believed he was going to kill me I just didn’t know when. My fight or flight response was in a permanent state of ON until 12 days ago (I am 57 and was home bound)! I was taught in my formative years and until age 20 when I moved out that I was shameful, unworthy and undeserving of love. I got hit with the belt, spanked until I bled, days (or weeks I can’t remember) of the silent treatment and always there was the Death Stare. When drinking sometimes my father would hug me in a sexual way and sometimes he exposed himself. Yes this is getting long. Mom was incapable of nurturing or expressing love. Since I always hated myself I made big and bad decisions throughout my life. I totally embrace this recovery program. I struggle with how fast my mind feeds me lies even when I am practicing mindfulness! Thank for listening to me! Oh, and I have some back pain which is not nearly as painful as the Chronic Fatigue, Depression - and I forgot to mention Binge Eating disorder, also since childhood. The CF started after my second divorce at age 35. Peace.