Hi, I'm kind of new here. New to posting, but I've been reading and watching the videos and listening to the podcasts for a couple of weeks now. I'm also seven days in to the educational program. I discovered this site through researching fibromyalgia which is what I believed I had. From a blog I heard about Dr Sarno and TMS and started searching the two online, and so here I am. My symptoms started about a year ago, but actually I realise I've been having symptoms on and off for years but it wasn't until they got really bad that I paid attention. The pain started in my jaw (I'd just had dental work and so thought it was that, but it kept switching sides and coming and going.) Next I had pain and weakness in my wrists, again this switched sides. This is when I first went to the doctors. I had blood tests, xrays, more blood tests, physical examinations and more blood tests! I've now seen four different doctors and two consultants who can't figure out what is wrong. Post viral fatigue is the closest I've had to an explanation. At times my pain has gotten really bad to the point that I can't walk - I have pain that moves around (hands, fingers wrists, arms, shoulders, neck, back, legs, feet, bottom, hips), and I also have muscle weakness in my arms and legs. So I'll walk up the stairs and it will feel like I've climbed a mountain, or holding my phone feels like I'm holding a brick. I was writing today and ended up feeling like I’d been writing for two hours and not five minutes. I’ve also suffered with IBS, and few years ago was diagnosed with something called pelvic congestion disorder (which I now believe to be tms.) I have had two pain free days since starting the program ...although today I haven’t felt so great again. I find that talking to myself really helps, although I might look a bit strange when doing it! Through journaling a phrase that keeps cropping up is ‘not good enough’. I read back over my entries and was amazed at how many times I’d written it. I came from a family with an alcoholic father and a mother who wasn’t in a great place. As a child I received no praise or encouragement for anything. It didn’t matter whether I failed an exam or passed with flying colours. In fact who knew I was taking one. Neither parent was interested in what myself or my siblings were doing. I knew I had been affected by this, but not how deeply until now. Anyway, sorry if this is a bit long or disjointed. I’m really glad to be here and to be on the path to getting better. Thanks for reading.