Its been like 5-6 weeks and today reached an all time low.. felt so sick, tired and so much pain in shoulder, arm and hand. Ive been behind pc like 6-8hours a day and pain got worse and worse. My mind forgot about tms and i was full on scared and depressed. I readt about lightning project and stuff this dude told reminded me of tms and i was like wtf am i doing.. im scared and i feel sick, i feel hopeless and am in so much pain.. Might this be because i forgot about tms and went on the scared, negative train again? I hope so.. Now i am trying to ignore it all again, but its hard since my heart skips beats and it scares me. Its the worst thing keeping me in the negative anxiety circle. It is so hard to dont care about the pain when it keeps getting worse, exhausting me and giving me rapid heart beat and heart skipping beats... Just had to get this out there. I did follow the steps on here the days. I just didnt journal that much... I did have a massive outburst in tears last weekend when fighting with my girlfriend. I always keep the tears in. But this time it came out like a waterfall, i couldnt stop it and was crying like a baby. After that my anxiety was gone and i was much less tired and depressed, the pain was still there just a bit less but overall i felt good. But that was a week ago, i feel shit at the moment. But this gives me hope that stress/ depression might still be in play for these last 6 years without me really noticing maybe causing all these physical symptoms and anxiety??? I am seeing a psychotherapist next week hope it helps... any tips?