Things are looking good! Even though I'm in the middle of a pain flare. My forearm (diagnosed tendonosis and RSI) was 99% pain free for the last 3-4 days... Earlier last week I had a another pain flare after taking a yoga twerking class. 100% fine during this class (the class was really fun). As soon as I walk out from the yoga studio, the forearm had a twinge of pain, (Just like a few other times this week) but I literally couldn't stop the thought "OMG I just reinjured myself. This is the first time I've done anything that physical in 6 months, it probably is an injury...OMG!" As you can imagine, the pain flared and I fell into an anxious and kinda depressed state for about 2 days. Then I snapped the F***k out of it. THIS IS TMS. I finally wrote out some affirmations. Then I gathered as much courage as I physically and emotionally could. And had been 100% pain free overnight since then. And I literally did 5 + hours of yardwork this weekend; weedwacking, using the shears and pulling weeds. 100% pain free fine until last night. What originally started all this was working as a massage therapist, and 7 months ago experienced arm pain during a massage, kept trying to work, and it catapulted into what was diagnosed as RSI and tendonitis/tendonosis of the thumb and forearm extensors. Since figuring out this is TMS, I've been pretty pain free and happy lately. One of my greatest passions is my business and doing massage, and I decided to go back to massage work. As you can imagine after my first night back to work last night, I had a pain flare. Not after the first massage (deep tissue 1 hour), but when I got home. Stepdaughter asked for a foot massage and I'll take any moment she wants to bond So while rubbing her feet I felt a twinge of pain and literally watched the thought go by," OMG I think I reinjured myself, I did a lot of work with my thumb tonight, this pain feels different, it feels sharper than normal..." And instead of letting go the thought, my mind grabbed. Downward spiral. So now I'm sitting here, watching the shit show of my mind unfold. Thanks to mediation I'm more conscientious of the worry and anxiety and the sensations they produce in my body, the tightness in my chest, butterflies in my stomach, and I'm terrified. Isn't it amazing how your mind can highjack you? How your thoughts can hold your body hostage and fearful? I'll keep sitting with the energy of the anxiety and know this thought will eventually dissipate. Then once again, I will gather enough courage and determination to move though this, physically move forward and reach my goals. I will grow even more in strength within myself, letting go of the fear and living the life I deserve to live. FUCK YOU TMS!