Hello, I've been following this forum for a little while and have run into some difficulties so I decided to sign up and see if you guys can guide me. Just a brief history - About a year and a half ago I "hurt" my back lifting a heavy couch. I was very distraught over this because I had hurt my back and subsequently had back surgery 20 years ago and all those terrible fears came rushing back. So I went to a PT and he gave me the Mackenzie exercies to do. The pain started receding and I was good 3 months later. Shortly after that, I started having gassy bloated problems in my gut. Doc ordered a colonscopy. My symptoms actually went away before the colonoscopy was done. Then I started having some pretty severe panic attacks which coincided with fears of high blood pressure. Very distressing. I then discovered a book on Amazon called DARE which helped a lot with my anxiety. It actually worked pretty well but doesn't deal with any core issues that are causing the anxiety. After mostly relieving the anxiety all of a sudden one day I started getting carpal tunnel/ cubital tunnel/ Thoracic Outlet symptoms. I've seen the video Forest made and my symptoms were almost identical to his. This freaked me out as I couldn't do my job or play golf or hardly anything very physical. Went through the gauntlet of doctors, PT, Airrosti, Orthopedic (had ulnar decompression surgery on my elbow), massage therapy too. The cubital tunnel stuff started about 6 months ago. Fast forward to today. I started reading The Divided Mind about 3 weeks and started journaling about 2 weeks ago. I had some nice improvement even before I started journaling which helped convince me that I do indeed have TMS. Since then progress has been in fits and starts. There's so much information to take in that it can be overwhelming but there are a couple things that I think are really holding me back. I'm much more of a "thinker" than a "feel your emotions" guy. I've been able to feel my feelings a couple times and it really helped. But I'm having trouble repeating the process at will. Any tips with this? Another hurdle for me is the physicophobia thing. My brain connects the cause of my pain with physical activity. In my case - too much typing and mouse clicking is what caused it. So now whenever I do something physical such as typing, riding my bike (which i really enjoy), swinging a golf club, anything vigorous really, I start feeling the pain increasing and then the fear comes on which stresses me out and makes it worse. Any help there?