Day 30 or maybe 31 of the SEP and I'm becoming very clear on some things. One is that beneath the anger, which I am now allowing myself to feel (finally) are abandonment issues. What the? I had been totally unaware of that. I find that I am so afraid of feeling abandoned (lots of childhood stuff) that I come to a full stop emotionally (freeze) whenever anything even remotely similar occurs. So seeing this. Also seeing that although there are chores in home and work life that nobody necessarily wants to do, I always will do them, believing that other people can be harmed by doing what they don't want to do, whereas I can "take it." Again, what the? Other people's feelings and experiences are more valid than mine, to my goodist self. After all, the experience of having to clean a toilet might make someone abandon me. Trying to begin to let people in my life do the things they don't want to do, or share in responsibilities rather than taking it all on myself in order to keep everyone placated. This is uncomfortable. Just thought I'd put it out here.