Good progress report!

I don't think I've found anything that I'm passionate about, or a "calling". I've totally made peace with that and I'm okay with it! I enjoy doing all kinds of different things. I've let my heart guide me to whatever makes it sing. It could be a new creative outlet that I discovered or a new workout. I'll do those things for a little while and move on to something different. I may come back to it, I may not. I think that's the beauty of life and experiencing new things. I no longer get stuck on not having something constant.

I think you found a good topic to explore emotionally and journal about!

 

Thanks, @HealingMe, I think you're right about that. As I am in my late 60s now I'm exhausted from being a 'butterfly' my whole life. I wish I found it enjoyable, but I just don't, and it makes me feel very sad.

 

I'm sorry you feel sad, BloodMoon. Sending you a virtual hug. <3

 

Thank you, HealingMe ❤️

 

It’s never too late to get passion. It often lies dormant and just waits for the right time to arrive.

 

You saying that reminds me of Geoff Capes who was a British shot putter; he won an olympic bronze medal and then had a career as a strong man and won the world's strongest man competition a couple of times. Later on in life though, of all things, he became a champion budgerigar breeder. He took up the hobby after a chance meeting, when as a policeman he was sent to arrest a man for non-payment of a fine; upon seeing the guy's budgies in their aviary, he chatted to him for over an hour. I guess you never know when inspiration might strike!

 

I think people with a spiritual perspective, a religion or a philosophy, don’t struggle as much with the meaning part of life, and even the mortality. I think that’s the joy of basing your life on eternity and not on this world. Everything gains such a greater meaning— and what you do here can be taken there. And, in that sense, there really is no time limit for any of your dreams to come true.

I think I might have had something to do with @BloodMoon ’s thoughts. I was pointing out that having something you love will keep you from despair— And despair feeds TMS. Having something I love helps keep me from being hopeless. But I don’t think it’s the only way to keep from being hopeless. Everyone has their way of surviving. I also don’t think you need a passion to heal from TMS— You just need to get your brain off of TMS somehow— however you do it. For me being unemployed has been really bad for my nerves. Claire Weekes talks about it a lot in her book, Hope and Help for your Nerves. She says people with hypersensitive nervous systems need to be occupied every day or else they will just think about what’s wrong with them. Whenever you do something fun or something that occupies your time, your nervous system is actually resting, she says. It’s healing. I think it could be anything. It doesn’t have to be a passion. I just happened to lose my typing ability because of TMS and I couldn’t work anymore. Working used to keep my brain occupied. So now I’ve replaced it with writing a book longhand.

 

I agree with this wholeheartedly. If I’m not engaged in something, I’ll find something to worry about. Today I spent the whole day painting our front door and my heart is singing. I could feel tension melting away and my body relaxing. It’s an addicting feeling, for sure, to be at ease. I don’t have a passion. I just find exciting and fun ways to let my body and mind relax. And I’m totally okay with that.

 

Yes, girl!! When you are a writer nothing absorbs your mind like writing...this is such a good move for you!