Thank you for the encouragement. My courage fluctuates quite a lot these days. The common message I've seen is to learn to get comfortable being uncomfortable, and to live as much as though you aren't feeling held back by your pain/anxiousness. Much easier said than done, especially with sleep deprivation. This is literally the hardest thing I've ever attempted. I really do want to push into the other side of this. But I recognize the paradox I create in wanting to get better so badly.