“analysis. Maybe I’m finally getting to where I need to be. I give up.”
BINGO
The analysis is the over thinking and IT’S NOT YOR JOB!
There is nothing “wrong” with you! Analysing is your brain constantly trying to prove there is something wrong. It’s totally TMS-ing.
The “giving up” is 100% the way you come together mentally. When your brain analysis, tell yourself to stop and FEEL it. No thinking, feel what is going on in your body. This is when you teach yourself the subtle shifts of emotional sensation are ok. And just be.
You write out all your crap but limit the stories behind it, even skip the stories of you can. Write for 20 mins a day max. Tear it up, move on. No analysis, or thinking about it. It’s GONE. If you find yourself attempting to rehash the same stuff, just stop. Tell yourself to stop writing, sit and feel the emotional weight and tell yourself that it’s gone.
You are absolutely right you need to get out of this spot, and name the fact that you are recognizing this as success! The face you are now teaching your mind that rehashing it all over and over is not control is a WIN!
