Rusty Red
Well known member
What part of PPD do you think is frustrating or silly? Is there something about the theory you don't accept? What personality trait do you think makes you feel this way?
I think my biggest frustration with the work is the notion that you have to have full belief. I really struggle with my doubts on a daily basis and it feeds into my feels like a failure personality trait that I can't do it right and make it work, thus leading to more doubt, and the vicious circle continues. I know where that comes from, I grew up always wanting to do everything perfectly and knowing I had to excel to continue my education because I needed scholarships and my own loans to go to college. My mom made clear early on that she couldn't help me in that regard.
My posts have made pretty clear that I'm in constant doubt and fear about this being a true physical issue, especially with the spreading of the pain instead of moving to a new area, i.e. the original area still hurts while it spreads outward. I'm doing my best to work on it and believe in the TMS diagnosis. I could get it confirmed, we have an "expert" in our area, but the price is steep. That feeds back into the same frustration, that I should have to spend so much money to confirm what I'd like to be able to work on myself. It has been helpful in that regard to follow a few people on here who stand on the side of not needing that professional confirmation.
I think my biggest frustration with the work is the notion that you have to have full belief. I really struggle with my doubts on a daily basis and it feeds into my feels like a failure personality trait that I can't do it right and make it work, thus leading to more doubt, and the vicious circle continues. I know where that comes from, I grew up always wanting to do everything perfectly and knowing I had to excel to continue my education because I needed scholarships and my own loans to go to college. My mom made clear early on that she couldn't help me in that regard.
My posts have made pretty clear that I'm in constant doubt and fear about this being a true physical issue, especially with the spreading of the pain instead of moving to a new area, i.e. the original area still hurts while it spreads outward. I'm doing my best to work on it and believe in the TMS diagnosis. I could get it confirmed, we have an "expert" in our area, but the price is steep. That feeds back into the same frustration, that I should have to spend so much money to confirm what I'd like to be able to work on myself. It has been helpful in that regard to follow a few people on here who stand on the side of not needing that professional confirmation.
