I went to "happy hour" today with a work group. I rarely drink but I did have a drink with the group. I really don't feel connected to this group but there was quite a bit of subtle pressure to attend today. I often experience some frustration/disconnection in group settings generally. Today, as I was sitting with the group, I felt a significant intensification in my left temple symptoms, something like trigeminal neuralgia. The symptom is there every day now but this was definitely an intensification. I initially thought it may be from the alcoholic beverage but now I think it may have been the social discomfort. I am so annoyed with this experience and with myself. I want things to be smooth but they are not. Do I push myself to stay? Do I disconnect even further and leave or maybe not attend at all? It seems like the leaders at work want to do even more of these sorts of gatherings in order to team build. This (frustration in groups) has been a pattern for much of my life. The pattern definitely emerged in childhood. I don't know if always relying on therapy to "work things out" is such a good idea (although I am seeing a therapist every other week). Not sure what to do with this. Definitely frustrated.