For about two weeks or so I think I had really turned a corner in terms of my general attitude towards the pain and sensations. I was just focused on living my life and having fun - accepting that if the pain was going to stick around I might as well maximize my life instead of just fearing it all day everyday. It was a slight shift but had a huge impact on my mood (anxiety, depression, capacity to have fun, etc). Before if I was feeling bad it felt like I’d never feel any different and it symptoms were more mild I would just be “waiting for the other shoe to drop” The last two weeks the practice has been if it feels bad I say “ah, yeah this sucks, but I’m sure I’ll feel better soon” and if it feels mild I just try to live my life and not even think about it. I think this has helped my symptoms some as well as my mood. I was certainly having more fun. In this timeframe I was more able to see cause and effect of situations on symptoms (anger/frustration/annoyance would aggrevate, sitting in specific chairs (lol)). What has happened a few times is intense flare ups that *appear to have no reason*. For example, yesterday was just enjoying a nice swing in the hammock, very low pain, not even really thinking about much of anything a blam, it hits. I try to go over anything that could be bothering me but just feel like I’m kicking up some mud. I tried to adopt my recent shift in mindset but I think I was just really worn out and couldn’t muster the energy and fell back on old habits. Is this expected? That sometimes for no reason you’ll have big flare ups? And because I was unable to “happy” or “indifferent” my way through it I am currently feeling a little low and scared (well, at least relative to the last two weeks. This was my baseline since developing these symptoms). In these situations, should I immediately keep trying to just keep having fun and ignore or should I embrace these emotions (even though they are reactions to the pain, not generated from the pain itself) for a bit? I know if I let it linger to long I might get stuck in my old patterns which clearly were not working.\ It just feels like it’s impossible to get out of this maze when you *feel* like you are doing everything right and then get thrown off the horse again and again.