This is my first week benchmark of going through the SEP (in reality it's been 3 weeks but whatever). I find myself believing in TMS more and more everyday and I am starting to notice (a little) less pain. The biggest change for me is that I'm starting to not care about what I do, as if I'll make it worse. Like if I come home from work and sit on the couch too long will that make me more painful and set up a bad tomorrow? Maybe, but a little extra pain isn't the worst thing in the world, been there done that. The hardest part I still struggle with is how to cope with TMS when I am in a pain episode. My confidence surges when I come home from yoga feeling like a million bucks but plunges down to thoughts of surgeries when my back is howling from sitting/standing too long. I go to those thoughts less than I did when i first started TMS recovery, but it still happens, and I have to constantly steer my mind away. It's frustrating as humans that we seek immediate results and patterned gradual improvement, but recovery isn't like that. It's a battle that you have to fight with the unconscious at all times until it finally bows down in defeat. In terms of how my activity levels are I'm a lot more active. As stated above I returned to yoga and my pain didn't sky rocket like i thought it would. Sometimes it just hurts a little extra sometimes after, but nothing to panic about. I'm doing a lot more social events on the weekends, which is great since previously I would just lay on the couch resting. I even plan to return to hiking and the gym in 1 week and start my road back to my biggest stress relievers. Overall I am improving even if my dumb mind doesn't want to see it that way.