Hi Everyone, I have been reading your posts for a few years now, but this is my first post. I know that I have a TMS-susceptible body. I have used the TMS techniques to overcome a variety of stuff in the past few years - back pain, unrelenting stomach aches, all-over body pain. I am not so good at staying aware of my emotions, though, so, inevitably some time will go by, and something will build inside of me, and then out comes some new TMS symptom. And since I can't seem to learn my lesson, it takes me a while to figure out it's TMS again.... Anyway, I am in the midst of an episode. I just wasn't feeling so great for a few weeks - nothing specific; just kind of always felt like a cold was coming on without a lot of energy, with a mild, but lingering headache. Some days I felt better; other days I just wanted to lie in bed. Some days my back ached; some days it didn't. Some days I had incessant heartburn; I realized that since feeling overall, not-so-great on most days, the heartburn has mostly gone away. This past week, I realized I have a lot of pent-up anger towards my mother (yes, we have an unhealthy, co-dependent relationship). I recalled one of the times I felt worst was after being at her house. Then when I got home, I felt miraculously better. Anyway, since realizing that I have this anger at my mother, I have been having so much palpable anxiety. I think I had my first-ever anxiety attack on Tuesday. I was so light-headed with so much pressure in my chest that I actually went to get checked out by my doctor. (my dad died at 47 of heart disease so there is that stress, too). Needless to say, I checked out ok, and left with a prescription for ativan. I continue to have this lingering feeling of "feeling not so great" and on the verge of lightheadedness. I have so much anger at my mother right now that I couldn't even look at her yesterday; but working out issues with her is not really feasible right now. She has a number of health issues and I need to keep a good relationship with her because I am her primary source of support. She is also extremely sensitive and I couldn't even envision the consequences of raising any of this stuff with her. Plus, I have 3 small kids to take care of, including a 6 month old who has yet to sleep through the night. I am sure the fatigue is not helping at all. Anyway, just looking for some support, words of advice, or wisdom. I have lent out all my TMS books, so don't have those to refer to right now. Thank you all!