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Discussion in 'Support Subforum' started by Carc612, Jan 12, 2020.

  1. Carc612

    Carc612 Newcomer

    i have been researching TMS after battling severe anxiety for the past 5 months. I noticed that I had pain during episodes of high anxiety. My right arm hurt so I went to an orthos Dr. MRI showed to tears or structural problems and PT didn’t help. The official diagnosis was rotator cuff tendinitis. Then I noticed my thoracic spine hurt. I had an MRI 2.5 years ago with a diagnosis of disc narrowing. Then my neck, shoulder blades, shoulders, sternum and left rib cage began to hurt. The pain moves around. The only constant was my original arm pain. I have now noticed a lump in The throat feeling and a punch in the gut feeling. I have had 2 full blood panels done and everything was normal with the exception of low vitamin D. I had a colonoscopy 2.5 years ago and all was normal. I do live with fear and health anxiety. Everything I read and hear about TMS via podcasts and you tube describes me. Every new symptom scares me and I can feel the tension build. I have read Dr Sarnos first book, How to Heal Back Pain. I have also worked with a therapist and have faced so many suppressed emotions over the past 5 months. It is easy for me to feel sadness, guilt and even some self loathing. I cannot tap into anger. I journal everyday and since starting that I’m feeling the pain more. Is it common for the lump in the throat and punch in the gut feeling? It’s not painful but worrisome. Also is there any other work I can do
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  2. Baseball65

    Baseball65 Beloved Grand Eagle

    That's called 'plum pit' or something like that in Chinese medicine and has been around for centuries of anxiety sufferers...(bound-up qi feels like a plum pit ion your throat)

    There is a great program called the SEP on this forum with a lot of challenging questions for yourself and work stuff to self-teach yourself about yourself

    https://www.tmswiki.org/ppd/Structured_Educational_Program (Structured Educational Program)

    You sure sound like us. welcome!
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  3. Bodhigirl

    Bodhigirl Well known member

    Welcome! I’ve been doing Sarno recovery for many years. The anger comes when it’s darn good and ready. It’ll come. Be content with whatever feelings arise...
    Good folks here. Trust the process. The body is an amazing guide.
    Best wishes!!
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  4. Goldy

    Goldy Peer Supporter

    That's good to know that the anger comes when it's "darn good and ready". I'm feeling all the other emotions except that anger...I understand that it's not so important to identify the emotions; just to feel it. Some of the emotions are on the surface, and I have no idea what they are; only the sadness is recognizable. I think the reason I can't get to the anger emotions is because I think it is from my husband and kids, and I don't like to have any bad thoughts about them because I love them all so much (and I know they love me).
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  5. Ellen

    Ellen Beloved Grand Eagle

    I believe this line reflects a primary reason for your TMS--conflicted emotions. We repress emotions we think we shouldn't be having. We believe it is wrong to be angry at our loved ones. But we are human and love is messy sometimes. Learning to live with the knowledge that it is OK to experience the full range of emotions is a big part of TMS recovery.

    Wishing you the best on your recovery journey......
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  6. Bodhigirl

    Bodhigirl Well known member

    And Sarno states in Divided Mind that our unconscious may never reveal the full feelings of rage but we can recover anyway. A relief to remember!
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  7. Goldy

    Goldy Peer Supporter

    Thank you! :)
  8. Goldy

    Goldy Peer Supporter

    That's good to know. I'm really trying to feel those emotions. I actually feel myself discarding and repressing my emotions when things happen day to day and then I catch myself and feel them as much as I can. Really takes practice because I was repressing for so long; maybe my whole life.

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