
I don't know if you are in the same state I was, but I was like an injured animal in a cave, without any help. Could not enjoy anything. Anyway, these symptoms, like you are in a cloud, exhausted, dizzy in pain don't allow you to enjoy much.
Started with the basics. I tried enjoying eating my meals ( healthy and fast food, whatever I wanted). I tried enjoying other basic things, a walk, a movie, without pressure. It is the outcome independence, I said I will do it no matter what. Of course, first times are like you are climbing a mountain, but day to day your mind becomes familiar to the idea and gradually you forget for minutes the pain etc. It took me almost a year to do basic things, like eating, having a bath normally, walking, discuss with a loved one etc
I started Pilates, you can find something you really like, search for something free or cheap, even online. first year I felt like I am 90 years old, could not make any exercise without being tired, but it helped soooo much, even in facing the fear ( you say, come on, fear, look what I am doing!)
A very important part though is your mind, your soul. Why do you feel the way you feel? And very important, what do you feel about your situation and why? Do you feel useless? Why? Do you feel guilty? Gabor was a light in a dark room for me, I strongly recommend his books.
I did the structured programme, after some months I did allan gordons, besides I talked to a specialist, so I can understand better myself ( you have to find the one that fits you, don't be afraid to change the one you don't like, it is not a persistence, it is a choice).
I began to ask for help and I began to make me a priority, without being selfish. When you put you in priority something relaxes into you. It says, aaa, ok, I like this. Gabor says it is better to feel guilty, it means you fullfil your needs.
I had many emotions hidden and I didn't know anything about how I can feel an emotion. It needs exercise, but anyone can do it. They are very painful at the beginning. Sometimes you think you can't stand it. But you feel them and becomes more more comfortable.
There are many techniques recommended but they don't fit to anybody. I can't meditate but I can listen to music and relax. I can not be very mindful but I can be curious and observe. Choose yours.
And all these things need time and rest, so you stop anything that is not essential to your healing. Make you ( not your healing) a priority.
Last. I noticed that something I have read eg last year I begin to feel it now. In my case it is a veeeeery slow procedure, but I am telling myself from time to time, take your time dear, you deserve it.
Small but determined steps per time.
Everybody can make small steps, so you