Feeling unsure and depressed

Hi guys
Couple of months ago i posted regarding some pelvic pain ive been experiencing.
Since reading sarno and a book by Georgie Oldfield and following mind body approaches my pain has altered in sensations, location( sometimes around the same area and sometimes within different body parts)
Having read that tms will move to different parts and change i found myself being more reassured of the tms diagnosis.
I haven't posted my full story, however in a nutshell my pelvic pain ( spasming, twitching, tingling) all begun overnight. There was no accident, no previous issues just bam, sitting at work and noticed a pulling sensation in my groin.
This of course threw me into a frenzy as ive always been somewhat of a hypochondriac with my health( googling, many doctor visits for previous issues)ive always been that girl who had something wrong with the health.
Anyway, i saw doctors gynos to seek help,physical therapist who say i have tight pelvic floors, i read all sorts of horror stories online about pudendal neuralgia and vulvodynia. These were ruled out as I didn't have the classical symptoms. ( still fear my pain could morph into these full blown symptoms one day)
Fast forward 5 months, im still getting pain on and off and ive been working with tms healing for 2-3 months. I appreciate many have been suffering for years before reading about sarno and accepting mind body however it resonated with me straight away and I immediately stopped further investigation into my pain as the doctors did not know how to help further anyway.
Since my pain begun i had taken long term
Sickness from work as i could not concentrate, as mentioned earlier this was 5 months ago and im now back at work, its been 3 days, and symptoms have come back, varying in severity. I have sitting pain which prevents me from sitting comfortably without pain in my lady bits. This pain i never noticed much when i was off sick, maybe because i was not sitting down on chairs as much.
Im feeling a little worried and scared that i'll never be free from pain,im trying to decondition my brain from focusing on the pain and work on my emotions and how im feeling.
Any words of wisdom are welcome:-( xxxxx

 

Hi, Anisha.
You are not alone in being worried and scared that you will not heal from your pain. You need a good dose of TMS belief.

I urge you to start the Sructured Eductional Program, free in the subforum of this web site. It helped me and many others to discover the emotional causes of our pain through understanding Dr. Sarno's MindBody TMS philosophy.

Sarno's 12 Daily Reminders are an excellent way to increase belief in TMS healing. Another member of this web site community, Herbie, wrote up a longer version I think will be helpful.


Herbie’s Extended Version of Dr. Sarno’s 12 DAILY REMINDERS

1. The pain is due to TMS. This is real pain or anxiety but it is caused by subconscious tensions and triggers, stressors and traits to your reactions and fears and also when at boiling point your conscious tension can and does also cause real pain.
2. The main reason for the pain is mild oxygen deprivation. This means that when you get in pain or anxiety then the blood is restricted from going to your lower back, for instance. The blood being restricted causes oxygen deprivation which causes the pain. Remember, where there is no oxygen then there is pain in the body. Also, the pain stays because of fear.
3. TMS is a harmless condition caused by my REPRESSED EMOTIONS so even though you think you can harm yourself from the years of pain you have felt and how you feel in general -- so far no reports have been heard from TMS healing knowledge causing damage to anyone, it only helps.
4. The principle emotion is your repressed ANGER -- this means under your consciousness lies something that happens automatically to everyone. TMSers have repressions that are stored because of our personality traits, traumas, stressors, fears, strain, etc... When these stored repressions build and build, then eventually they cause the brain to send pain into your body to keep you from having an emotional crises. The mind-body thinks it is helping you.
5. TMS exists to DISTRACT your attentions from the emotions, stressors, tensions and strains of your personality traits because if you can get distraction then you won’t have to be in emotional turmoil. When you don't face and feel your emotions and they get repressed because you didn't want to deal with something -- they are just adding up in this beaker, ready to pour over and create real pain and anxiety in your body.
6. Since my body is perfectly normal, there is nothing to fear. So in reality when I fear the pain or anxiety I just cause myself undo strain and tension adding to the beaker of pain. If I fear, then I feed the pain, If I fear, it’s impossible to recondition. Fear keeps the pain and anxiety alive in the body through focus.
7. Therefore, physical activity is harmless. If I want to work against the pain I could but it’s better to lose some of the pain so when I start my life over I have to be in pain trying to heal because facing the repressions and all the other activities that cause the pain and reversing my fear and focus to them, then I can heal.
8. I am resuming all normal physical activity. I don't fear moving anymore. I believe in my body’s ability to heal now. I can move as I want. I will not fear moving with a bent back anymore. I will also practice going out and acting normal again, not in fear of what pain might do to me.
9. The pain is unimportant and powerless. Its only power is how it is hidden -- its illusion, its fear.
10. I will keep my attention on the emotional issues. I will think about my emotions and feel my emotions throughout the day. I will not judge, criticize or fear my emotions. I will not run from my emotional issues but face every one of them. I will feel my emotions fully and cry if I need to. Then I will release the emotion and get my mind and thoughts back to my life and living in the present.
11. I am in control of all of this. This is how I recover.
12. I will be thinking PSYCHOLOGICALLY AT ALL TIMES. This means I will keep my thoughts on psychological issues like happiness, fear and anger -- traits and triggers, conditioning and journaling -- The science behind mind-body/TMS healing, etc.... This way I will not feed my thoughts to the body -- that is a trick of TMS. TMS will always try to get me to focus on the body caused by the pain until I break its show and flair. When I get my attention off physical symptoms and on to emotional issues and psychological issues then I will not feed the fear of the physical issues anymore, thus making the TMS of no pain effect on the body. This will in return, give us the cure and become pain-free.

 

Thanks @Walt Oleksy
Your response means so much to me this evening, Evan though im sad and fearful, im still allowing these feelings completely, and im not blaming myself or pressuring myself to feel any different then i am in this moment.

I did attempt to start the sep, but decided against it as i was finding hope and reduction in pain reading success stories and reading the books.

Hope you're enjoying your day xx

 

Hi again, Anisha. Sometimes it just helps to be in touch with others who have pain, for one reason or another.
Reading the TMS books and success stories are great to help in healing.