Feeling trapped between anxiety and pain

I have had some success making my symptoms go away with Sarno's approach and Alan's TMS program. Unfortunately, I feel like I keep getting to this place where I am caught between fear/anxiety (my repressed emotion) or pain. I will either feel incredibly anxious/panicked/not like my self at all, and anything I do to calm me down (meditation, yoga, exercise, mindfulness, etc.) results in my anxiety lessening but my symptoms getting worse. This includes any self-talk I will engage in, trying to remind myself that it will get better.

I feel trapped between a rock and a hard place.

Some additional information: I have abused marijuana heavily for almost a decade as I felt it helped with my anxiety and depression. About two years ago I quit because I realized it seemed to be actually making my TMS symptoms worse. This resulted in my TMS symptoms improving quite a lot, but I only lasted about 2 months or so before finding myself in this terrible pain-anxiety cycle that I was unable to break out of. I then went back to smoking for the last two years. I quit about 6 weeks ago and the first month was pretty good but the more I worked on my TMS symptoms the worse my anxiety got.

I want to work on resolving this WITHOUT medication. I feel like going on a psychiatric medication will only continue to push my unresolved anxiety issues aside without ever dealing with them at their root. But I am starting to fear that maybe I cannot do this without some sort of substance as I am in great pain and anxiety.