During my TMS recovery journey I noticed that I have a strong feeling of not being good enough. I can remember some instances from from my early childhood and youth which might have helped creating this feeling. The feeling of not being good enough was probably instrumental for creating my personality, which is thriving, perfectionist, compulsive, responsible and controlling. Always eager and willing to take on new responsibilities. A typical TMSer. This personality has served me very well in my engineering and project management professions. My personality though must have enraged my inner child, which probably wanted to be pampered, have fun, take it easy and play, really the opposite of my adult personality. My TMS started in full force after my retirement. Now that I am aware of this feeling and address it, my pain actually got worse. Could this be that my subconscious mind is resisting my action and still wants to distract me from it with the increased pain? I now try frequently to connect to it and tell myself that it is perfectly OK to have this feeling. Is this enough to convince my subconscious mind?? Your comments will be most appreciated.