Hi Everyone, My name is Camille and I’m 28 years old. I just finished Dr. Sarno’s book Healing Back Pain. So much of it resonated with me and my personality traits. I’m a worrier, anxious, perfectionist, and severely harsh on myself. Since I was a child, I’ve never really found a way to express my emotions, so I push them down so I don’t have to deal with them. I get stomach issues when I’m anxious, and I also have a weird condition on my tongue where the papillae come off during periods of high stress. I point these out because I think my body already has physical ways of dealing with my emotions. But I’m here because I have had chronic lower back pain for the past three years. I was diagnosed with spondylolisthesis L5-S1 with minor slippage. I feel a low level of constant pain that increases a ton when I stand for more than a few minutes. It feel unbearable sometimes. It’s just so hard to get comfortable, even when I’m laying down to sleep or sitting. I don’t have spasms, and can’t recall an instant when the pain began. It is just a constant sensation. Could this be TMS? I’ve been to four doctors since, tried physical therapy, cortisone injections, rest, stretching, but nothing seems to work. After reading Dr. Sarno’s book, I began to wonder if my fractures were actually the cause of my pain. The Xray shows they are old fractures and I have had them, unknowingly, most of my life. It wasn’t until graduate school that I experienced back pain. Graduate school was very stressful, and I have a lot of anger and resentment built up over the whole process. I started yoga in graduate school to deal with the stress and pressures, and I was doing some pretty deep back bending (unknowingly, a contraindication of my condition). I’m conflicted about whether I hurt myself MORE with yoga or it was the stress, pressure, and my personality turning emotional stuff into pain. I want to believe I have TMS SO BAD. But I am trained scientifically and feel I need evidence for everything I hear. I very much want to accept it, because I am completely desperate for a solution. Anyways, that’s where I am at today on Day 1. I will continue to educate myself and am potentially seeking a TMS therapist to assist me. Thanks for listening and if you have any tips or insights please let me know!