I am trying to figure out what to do to get rid of the last remnants of my back pain. The positives
I can walk miles with only minimal discomfort. I am sleeping beautifully. The anxiety attacks have left. The pain level is way down. My stamina is back. I got myself off of all medication, even ibuprofen. I am even trying (though not successfully sometimes) from not even allowing myself any pain cream, just going bare and bulling it out. I am grateful for these things, enormously grateful.
The negatives
Though I can sit down again, and intermittently sit sans pain in the morning, the pain does come back, and it makes it difficult to do things I love, like play the piano, write my books, draw, do some aspects of my job. I do these things anyhow, but oh I so much would like to do these things in comfort and peace. I hate having to go lie down every few hours to "rest up" so I can have another bash at things...I should not have to rest my back from sitting down...this is absurd!
I feel stuck, and I am getting very resentful and angry having simple things like sharing a bottle of wine with my husband interrupted with back pain. I want to sit up and see the view, not have to go lie down and stare at a wall. This whole thing seems like a bunch of (insert profanity here).
I am keeping on journaling, reading Sarno, doing what I am supposed to, but sometimes I don't feel it is helpful, and I'm just going through motions. Is the secret just saying, I don't give a damn anymore about this back stuff, and just winking at it, and saying, you are going away very soon, and just letting the last stages of healing happen?
Any thoughts?
I can walk miles with only minimal discomfort. I am sleeping beautifully. The anxiety attacks have left. The pain level is way down. My stamina is back. I got myself off of all medication, even ibuprofen. I am even trying (though not successfully sometimes) from not even allowing myself any pain cream, just going bare and bulling it out. I am grateful for these things, enormously grateful.
The negatives
Though I can sit down again, and intermittently sit sans pain in the morning, the pain does come back, and it makes it difficult to do things I love, like play the piano, write my books, draw, do some aspects of my job. I do these things anyhow, but oh I so much would like to do these things in comfort and peace. I hate having to go lie down every few hours to "rest up" so I can have another bash at things...I should not have to rest my back from sitting down...this is absurd!
I feel stuck, and I am getting very resentful and angry having simple things like sharing a bottle of wine with my husband interrupted with back pain. I want to sit up and see the view, not have to go lie down and stare at a wall. This whole thing seems like a bunch of (insert profanity here).
I am keeping on journaling, reading Sarno, doing what I am supposed to, but sometimes I don't feel it is helpful, and I'm just going through motions. Is the secret just saying, I don't give a damn anymore about this back stuff, and just winking at it, and saying, you are going away very soon, and just letting the last stages of healing happen?
Any thoughts?
