Briefly take a few minutes and write down some of your fears. Why are you afraid of these things ? I remember thinking during one of the first days of the programme where you have to write down three things that make you angry and sad that what I really needed was a list for things that made me scared. It's a long list and it surprises me because I'm not normally a person who is afraid of things. Actually, I pride myself on stepping up to the plate (so TMS personality) and getting things done without blinking. I adapt well, I am confident. There's no time for fear, but since the pain started I've been reduced to a quivering lump of the stuff. This needs to be a list : I'm afraid of : my children suffering or dying my children not being happy in their lives my children being sad not having enough money to pay my salary (I own a private language school) not having enough money to pay for my children's studies not having enough money to retire and having nowhere to live when I do not getting well and having to live in pain forever not being able to live in pain everyday the many, many reforms of this government making it impossible for me to keep the language school open and then what will I do to earn a living ? My relationship failing not being able to sustain a long-term relationship successfully having to take medication for the pain that I really don't want to take not having choices and being trapped in a situation I can't get out of I don't know why I'm afraid of these things. Maybe because they're just scary things and all have to do with feeling safe, which lately I don't feel anymore. There are just too many factors that are out of my control and I suppose that I feel safer when I can control events, although that's just an illusion and I know it.