Hi Folks, I am hopeful that some good TMS soul out ther can relate to this, and offer some inspiration that this will lead to better days. Overall, I am certain that the Psychological benefits of this Forum have underpinned my determination to get through. Lightening Bolt recently.... whilst journaling on life events, it occurred to me with great clarity that in order to heal I MUST undersatnd my relationship to FEAR. The history is there and undeniable: fear of pain from childhood surgeries, fear of abusive father, fear of failure as a teen, fear of failure as a self employed business person, (in spite of consistent success), fear of losing parents, fear of disability, fear of genetic dementia, FEAR OF PAIN, bloody hell what a fraidy cat... then again a pretty standard people pleasing western character? Currently, I seem to be experiencing a daily ratcheting upwards of symptoms, with little respite. Tried a 300m run recently (last week) ... hurt during (NEW different parts of both feet) then heaps after.. the ole TMS Monster is fighting to survive. Is it time to run 3000m and send the subconscious a serious message?