I have TMS, which manifests mostly as upper back, shoulder and neck pain. ANY exercise of my upper body and I have muscle pain for DAYS after and my mind becomes fixated on the pain with OCD like attention. I vacuumed my apartment and did some cleaning the other day and had soreness for a week! Exercise has been a fear of mine since I was very young. My parents were very loving, but super overprotective and from a young age I have associated exercise with fear, my mother especially programmed me to think I was weak. I was bullied constantly in school and hated gym class. When my upper back and shoulder pain first started, I did the Physical Therapy route (before I found Sarno) and my PT told me "weak muscles spasm easier than strong ones", and I needed to "strengthen my core", "fix my posture", "learn to move better" etc. Not sure I believe any of that now, but still, I would like to begin to be more active. Other than my job (being a photographer) I am ENTIRELY sedentary. How do I begin an exercise program that won't hurt me? I tend to be an "all or nothing" kind of guy, extremely hard on myself and lack discipline and follow-through. I have been trying to just go for a 30 minute walk every day, but can't seem to stick to it. Any ideas or support about fear of exercise and chronic muscle soreness? I associate soreness with TMS (it gets worse when I worry or am hard on myself or get emotionally triggered) but I also know it is "normal" to be sore after exercise when one has been sedentary forever. But what if exercise IS A TRIGGER? I am 45 and tired all the time, depressed and fear hurting myself, but I know it's now or never.