So, I am officially off the muscle relaxants, which is great. I slept Ok last night...one anxiety incident which went away fast, one hip pain incident which I realised was work stress, but 8 hours sleep. Hurrah! I exercised yesterday...not a lot, because the osteo treatment was still bothersome and I was exhausted...today we will go for a picnic and I will walk around. I have taken a walk everyday since i had the first incident...my challenge weirdly enough is sitting down for long periods. My husband put back the hard dining chair in the kitchen, and I am sitting on it now, reasonably fine, no meds, some mild aches. I would like a heating pad or ibuprofen, but I am resisting doing anything of the sort unless it gets unbearable, because I know there is not a darn thing wrong with me. I also had some cathartic moments when journalling...really got angry, and realised I had been driving myself like a little martinet with little self regard. I have self bullied and let others bully me too, so little wonder there is all this rage and anger. I also realised I have carried around a self belief I did not deserve success, and I have had a lot of success in my career, and I wonder if this is self sabotage. I simply refuse to let this beat me...instead I am releasing those toxic emotions, and training my attention on the sub conscious and its illusionary power.