What a concept for someone with TMS, huh? Ever since my back pain started (circa 2006), my activity level went way down. Add that to a desk job and well, that's not good. I did yard work and short walks, but that was about it. I would cycle through using the treadmill. So, I did the SEP and during that time promised myself that I'm going to get in the swing of things once the snow melted. This would be for me and my general health and having nothing to do with my back. I did use my treadmill, but was looking forward to activity outdoors. So, here I am ..... walking 1-1.5 miles every day at a pretty good clip with some incline and riding the bike about 2-3 miles several times each week ... same thing with some high intensity training involved to increase my heart rate. Today, I came in and just felt like giving up, thinking "why can't I do more without feeling out of breath, etc.?" I recuperate fairly soon and feel good after, but I just beat myself up over this. I have NEVER been an athlete. In fact, when I had to run in school I would get sideaches! The funny part about this (skewed thinking) is that I feel like I'm missing out on something or not part of the "club" because I don't run. In fact, it's the same with having a glass of wine or drinking coffee, neither of which I do. So, I guess my question is, how do you deal with thoughts like this and beating myself. Part of me knows that any exercise is good for my health and I'm ahead of the game there, but then it goes to the "not good enough" mindset. On a good note, there was some fear involved with getting back on the bike as it was associated with lower back pain, but no measurable pain!