hi everyone, I have been staying away from the wiki for a while because sometimes I think it adds to my preoccupation with my symptoms. Instead I have been focusing on the TMS therapy that I have once a week. Currently I feel very down and exasperated. I was able to embrace the whole TMS quite easily at the outset and I had a slight shift in my symptoms, but I am now staggering around both literally and metaphorically. I am engaging with my therapy whole heartedly and am open to everything that is coming up BUT I seem to be going nowhere except for that hour that I am in therapy and a short time afterwards. My world has become so restricted over the past three years and I can't stand it. I live on my own, can walk only 5o yds or so, can't get into bath, cant drive safely, can't change a light bulb or move a chair. This is for someone who has built furniture, had exhibitions of my paintings and loves people and company. I have read Sarno's books Oznich'sbook and hear every word when I am reading but when I am faced with daily chores, whether it is washing myself or trying to make a meal, the pathos of my situation flattens me. How do I get through this? I am really exasperated at the moment. Please help. My symptoms are so varied I wont bother to list them , but if the drop foot, and swollen foot went away that would be a great help. Oznich seems to suggest you just push your dropfoot physically but I have fallen twice in the last month and am loathe to tempt fate again. Also because pain is always associated with TMS it is hard for me to keep hearing this reference to pain. I have weakness, inflammation in alll sorts of areas, but again I don't think listing them is a help. I desperately want to be back out in the world, want to move freely, want to change a bloody light bulb and cant stand this endless daily battles. If you have got to the end of this thank you and if you have any advice I am grateful in advance.