leslietown
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Hi!
I had an epiphany but at the same time I don't know what to do with the information. Perhaps someone can help me figure this out here. You have all been so helpful with me, thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Background: I was in a whiplash accident 2.5 years ago around the time I had been teaching for 2 months. After that I have had pain in my ear, left shoulder, head. I am convinced it is psycho-somatic (tms).
I am a teacher and in my country we just had a break. During the break the pain almost disappears and I almost laugh at it..talk to it etc. However I become quite depressed and overcome with thoughts. There is a constant burnout feeling every break (also summer, which in my country is fully paid leave and vacation).
But today was the first day back. From the first lesson in the morning, no thoughts – just strong pain. Like head/shoulder/back of head is numb, throbbing, hurting all day.
I am trying to figure out what could it be then the underlying worry my brain is protecting me from. I always want the best for my students, do more than I should, am super positive in Zoom lessons (like a rag after lessons on the bed). Perfectionism? Fear of failure?
I was wondering if there are any teachers or also someone with the same thing, pain getting much worse after vacation/anxiety bad during vacation. Or perhaps you have some ideas for the underlying problems in this case.. I am not yet very good at analysing my emotions and recognizing them.
Thank you so much
I had an epiphany but at the same time I don't know what to do with the information. Perhaps someone can help me figure this out here. You have all been so helpful with me, thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Background: I was in a whiplash accident 2.5 years ago around the time I had been teaching for 2 months. After that I have had pain in my ear, left shoulder, head. I am convinced it is psycho-somatic (tms).
I am a teacher and in my country we just had a break. During the break the pain almost disappears and I almost laugh at it..talk to it etc. However I become quite depressed and overcome with thoughts. There is a constant burnout feeling every break (also summer, which in my country is fully paid leave and vacation).
But today was the first day back. From the first lesson in the morning, no thoughts – just strong pain. Like head/shoulder/back of head is numb, throbbing, hurting all day.
I am trying to figure out what could it be then the underlying worry my brain is protecting me from. I always want the best for my students, do more than I should, am super positive in Zoom lessons (like a rag after lessons on the bed). Perfectionism? Fear of failure?
I was wondering if there are any teachers or also someone with the same thing, pain getting much worse after vacation/anxiety bad during vacation. Or perhaps you have some ideas for the underlying problems in this case.. I am not yet very good at analysing my emotions and recognizing them.
Thank you so much
