Enough is enough, I’m taking the power back

The title says it all. Enough is enough. Due to the encouragement and love of the people on the board I have finally begun the SEP. I just finished day 2 assignments and I’ve been crying non stop for 2 days but not in a sad way. In a refreshing way, like I’m finally getting to say what I needed to say. I sat down and told my husband everything, all my fears, and why I’ve been struggling so much lately and just crying and crying. I haven’t cried this much in I don’t know how long.

This past week I started with hemmeroids and bleeding anal fissures, then it moved to a 4 day long tension headache.. then my brain said, “well, you’re not paying enough attention to me. I think I’d like to give you a recurrent tonsil abscess. That will scare the sh*t out of you!” (I’m on antiobiotics for it and am seeing an ENT very soon). Admittedly the abscess is scaring the bloody crap out of me but I’ve made the decision that for today, I’m LIVING MY LIFE

I’m mad as hell and I’m not going to take this anymore!!!

-savasana