Ryan79
Peer Supporter
Are you having success at recognizing the emotions connected to your pain?
I definitely notice that I have good days and poor days with pain. I think some of the hardest aspects of this journey is not knowing when or if there is ever an end. There are days that I wish I could just stay in bed all day long. Also in about 13 months there has never been a 100% pain free day which can get me down.
I would say fear and loneliness are some of my biggest emotional triggers for hastening my pain levels.
Sometimes I just want to pick up my kids but fear will make me hesitant.
If you have, how do these emotions make you feel?
RESTRICTED. Half alive. Drifting through the waves in the ocean, trapped in the undertow desperately trying to emerge to the surface. Then I rationalize that I've never failed at anything that I've ever sought out to overcome. I won't be defeated.
In the bible, James talked about 'count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience'. This whole process has taught me that eventually there will be a way out of my trapped warped mind and my unconscious undealt with feelings will set me free.
If not, what do you think is preventing you from doing this? Touching the source of pain with the other hand and vice versa. Worrying too much about the physical pains. Wondering if I should trust western medicine with shots of cortisone. I've seen the body heal the eye when stress has presented signs of problems. Bell's palsy, twitchy eyes, vitreous floaters (some people have a lot, but don't notice them). Central Serous Retinopathy.
I need to trust my body that it would have healed any other physical problem by now, and my emotional state is causing my problems.
I definitely notice that I have good days and poor days with pain. I think some of the hardest aspects of this journey is not knowing when or if there is ever an end. There are days that I wish I could just stay in bed all day long. Also in about 13 months there has never been a 100% pain free day which can get me down.
I would say fear and loneliness are some of my biggest emotional triggers for hastening my pain levels.
Sometimes I just want to pick up my kids but fear will make me hesitant.
If you have, how do these emotions make you feel?
RESTRICTED. Half alive. Drifting through the waves in the ocean, trapped in the undertow desperately trying to emerge to the surface. Then I rationalize that I've never failed at anything that I've ever sought out to overcome. I won't be defeated.
In the bible, James talked about 'count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience'. This whole process has taught me that eventually there will be a way out of my trapped warped mind and my unconscious undealt with feelings will set me free.
If not, what do you think is preventing you from doing this? Touching the source of pain with the other hand and vice versa. Worrying too much about the physical pains. Wondering if I should trust western medicine with shots of cortisone. I've seen the body heal the eye when stress has presented signs of problems. Bell's palsy, twitchy eyes, vitreous floaters (some people have a lot, but don't notice them). Central Serous Retinopathy.
I need to trust my body that it would have healed any other physical problem by now, and my emotional state is causing my problems.
