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Day 10 Emotions

Discussion in 'Structured Educational Program' started by scootertoe, Jun 16, 2014.

  1. scootertoe

    scootertoe New Member

    The journaling I did today was almost two years overdue but now that it's done, I feel relief. So many emotions never expressed about my Dad's 4 month illness and the heartache it caused our family. But having celebrated a second Fathers Day with him yesterday since that ordeal, I am so thankful and feel so fortunate.
    As for today's question to ponder, yes I have been critical of myself recently. I have a job that I love and the position was created for me and I am the only one who does this job in the hospital where I work. I only started there about a year and a half ago and have missed so much time dur to pain. If I am unable to go to work due the pain, then I feel like I am letting so many people down- my boss, my coworkers and most importantly my patients. It has also been a strain financially at times because I run out of sick time and then I get mad at myself because I have also had to use my vacation time. So then if I want to take a day off for pleasure, it might not be possible . A vicious cycle and one that needs to be stopped. That way I won't have to be critical of me!
  2. Stella

    Stella Well known member

    I am so tired of being compulsively dutiful. I am so tired of being the Fixer and so responsible and so hardworking. I am so tired of always being concerned about what other people think. I am so tired if beating myself on the head for minor flaws. It is exhausting mentally and physically. But now i have the tools to help me figure it all out and manage all my numerous physical symptoms.. Keep up the good work Scooter. You are going on an amazing adventure.
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  3. scootertoe

    scootertoe New Member

    Thanks Stella! So glad that the tools are working for you and so excited about feeling like "me" again, although it's been so long since I felt like that and I can barely remember it. The good news is that I have already seen glimpses of my own and thanks to all the supportive people on this forum I know there is the light at the end of the tunnel! Hang in there Stella, let me know how you are doing as you progress on yor journey!

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