The journaling I did today was almost two years overdue but now that it's done, I feel relief. So many emotions never expressed about my Dad's 4 month illness and the heartache it caused our family. But having celebrated a second Fathers Day with him yesterday since that ordeal, I am so thankful and feel so fortunate. As for today's question to ponder, yes I have been critical of myself recently. I have a job that I love and the position was created for me and I am the only one who does this job in the hospital where I work. I only started there about a year and a half ago and have missed so much time dur to pain. If I am unable to go to work due the pain, then I feel like I am letting so many people down- my boss, my coworkers and most importantly my patients. It has also been a strain financially at times because I run out of sick time and then I get mad at myself because I have also had to use my vacation time. So then if I want to take a day off for pleasure, it might not be possible . A vicious cycle and one that needs to be stopped. That way I won't have to be critical of me!