Yesterday I had such a good experience being able to chase my pain away by standing up to it. I went pain free for a few hours! Today it has been a little harder. We went to see a movie tonight and it was hard not to be distracted by the pain in my hip, but I still enjoyed it. It was wonderful knowing there was no need to be afraid. Sometimes I feel like I'm just faking it till I make it with not being afraid. It's very hard for me to have outcome independence, too, but I know it's helping. I have conditioned myself to think I'm only having success with getting rid of TMS if the pain actually goes away. It is actually rather comforting knowing that's not true. I am not fearing the pain and waiting for it's car to run out of gas. It is hard not to be discouraged when there is pain still. Any thoughts on this? I have a goal to go on a few walks this week, which usually isn't too hard for me. But I want to get back to running. I haven't gone running since April (I used to all the time). The TMS made my muscles cramp up so bad afterwards that it just wasn't enjoyable. I haven't done it since and feel a little nervous about trying it again, but I know it helps me deal with stress and emotions very well. When and how should I ease back in?