Day 3: Today my young son came into my room this morning and asked me, “Mom, when will your foot be better?” This morning started like many mornings recently. I wake up and then the panic attack comes. I am panicked about the pain – the fear that it will never get better. I am starting to doubt if my foot pain is caused by TMS. What if I tore a ligament? I’ve been to the doctor 3 times and received 3 different diagnoses: tendonitis, capusitis, and neuroma. I wonder if I could just get an ultrasound or MRI to show that there isn’t anything structurally wrong with my foot. I feel like I can’t stand the pain. It is robbing me of my life and scaring my children. Today’s exercise (no pun intended) is journaling about the last time you exercised. At this point I just want to walk without pain. I want to walk without a knee roller or a CAM boot, I just want to be able to walk. I tried to find a psychoanalyst or a counselor in my area that has dealt with TMS and there aren’t any. I also don’t know how to find a doctor in this area. If I could be seen by a doctor who could examine my foot and tell me that I have TMS – then I feel like I would be able to accept the diagnosis and move on. As it is – I want to believe – but I can’t. I have had TMS in my back before – and I KNOW when I have back pain that it’s TMS – which is why I don’t have back pain. But I just can’t believe it about my foot. Every time I walk on it I have pain and it’s getting worse. I drove yesterday for the first time in a week. Today I am sore. How am I going to get over this? How do you KNOW if you have TMS?