I enjoyed several days without any pain, twinges or reminders that I have TMS. It Was GLORIOUS!!!!!!! I managed to get through a situation that required some stressful thinking about finances. Resolved it without bringing up TMS. The real test I thought would be to manage pulling off a party for 30 people this saturday without my back seizing up. I kept (and keep) reminding myself that it doesn't have to be perfect. It doesn't have to be the END ALL BE ALL party. I could see myself running into those thoughts and running myself ragged with trying to attain that. I patted myself on the back every time I caught the thinking and changed it. I could feel the changed attitude and belief resonating in my body. Then as life does, I got thrown a curveball when my computer died with everything on it. I kind of live my life through these damned little boxes so the stress level went through the roof. I bought a new one. Figured I'll deal with the debt later. Fortunately had a back up service so yesterday was spent trying to restore and get back all my files. I don't need to go into all the details but the TMS came roaring back. What was different is that I kept reminding myself that it doesn't mean its going to stay forever - that I had lots and lots of anger and stress and pressure built up. I realized today that I went running yesterday but it was to relieve the pressure of the TMS (which was actually creating MORE pressure) when what I needed was a calming and relaxed walk. I could see more clearly the stress and pressure I was creating which helped me stay in "right mind." Instead of focusing on the TMS pain, I kept moving toward soothing the part of me that was freaking out and making things worse. We'll see what the next couple of days bring to me. But for now, I am grateful that I had a backup service to restore all my work... that I have a birthday tomorrow and a big party to celebrate friendships and an awesome life. If TMS comes around, I'll put my arms around it, let it know I don't really need its services now but if it stays like an unwelcome guest, I'll just keep focusing on the good life I have and the gratitude I have for this forum!