I really didn't feel like journaling today, but I did it anyway. Only for about 10 minutes, but that's better than nothing. I was looking forward to writing about personality traits. I know I can be a bit of a perfectionist, and people tell me I am as well. I think I go a bit over the top though. I am always telling myself things like - Your memory is terrible, you idiot! - That was so obvious, how did you not understand it - Your not good enough for this/that/the other - You will never be good enough to do that - You could have done that much better - That is all your fault and no-one elses - You are not intelligent enough That is just some of the thoughts I am telling myself. Would I dream of being so blunt and telling someone any of those, no of course not (plus I'm a people pleaser so of course I wouldn't!). So why am I treating myself so badly?! It's a real opener realising that you treat other people better than yourself. Clearly something has gone wrong, and no wonder I have a load of TMS pain. My subconscious is furious for all the criticism! I am going to try and have less critical thoughts as see how I get on. I kind of feel like this some sort of breakthrough, hopefully I'm along the right lines.