I wish all doctors understood TMS. I really hate going to the doctor because they tell me things like I should not be so active at my age. It is hard on my body. So I avoid going to them, but it leaves me with a big problem. When I feel a pain from an activity, I have no person to turn to who can examine me. I'm left with self examination which sucks because I have doubts about whether it's real injury or just TMS. I feel like it takes forever to figure out it's TMS then when the pain subsides something else comes up to take its place. Changing subjects, I realize I've got personality traits that are strong in the Stoic, Low Self Esteem, and Dependent areas. I hardly ever show my emotions and I do tend to sell myself short among my peers, and I also prefer others to take the lead. I think I don't like the idea of being judged. I don't think I ever liked having any attention on me at all. When I was a kid in school, I'd get physically ill when having to speak in front of the class. Not just when a kid either. I remember once in college, I had to take a speech class and I almost couldnt speak when my turn came to give a speech. I've improved somewhat now, but still recall those feelings well enough. Regarding depression, the recent suicide by Robin Williams puts it in the spot light. I sometimes wonder if I have depression. I don't seriously consider killing myself, but I can understand why someone would. I do feel those feelings of hopelessness, inadequacy, worthless, failure, but perhaps not in the same way or as strongly. I've told my wife that I thought I was depressed and she says to quit thinking like that and that I'm just feeling "blue". I'd like to believe her.