Recently, I became almost entirely bedridden. I haven't made any real progress in my limp-walking in a LONG time. It occurs to me that this is for one of two reasons: 1. I'm constantly lonely/miserable, so my body refuses to heal 2. I don't have any hope that my future will be anything other than misery and drudgery. I'd like to suddenly switch my thinking and think, "OK, now my future will be great!". I can't though. I don't believe it. I don't have hope, and I don't know how to get it. I think this is why I'm stuck.