I am noticing and experiencing so many emotions. If these are what cause me pain, it’s no surprise -- there’s a deeply hurt and sad and scared person inside me who isn’t great at caring for herself and isn’t great at asking others for help. I’m really excited for the somatic tracking, because I think that will be the connection for me -- being able to connect the two different pains, the emotional and the physical. It makes me sad that there’s been so much of this going on for so long without me knowing. And it’s no wonder I’ve gotten sick. You can think you really know yourself, but you’re always just scratching with a fingernail. There is so much in me to explore and to heal and to be brave about. I want to do that for me. I put this image in my journal. It's from an old episode of The Simpsons. What I like about it is that Maggie didn't have to do anything to earn love or care or support. She's just a baby. The mere fact of her existence meant she deserved compassion and mercy and someone trying hard for her. I feel like Homer working, but I also feel like Maggie receiving.