I envy the stories that I read here that go like this: I started journaling and realized that I had all this unresolved anger against <insert father, mother, brother etc> or I did 5 (or 10 or whatever number) sessions with the TMS therapist and realized that I was abused in my marriage ... and my pain immediately went away! I have been searching for that smoking gun in my past but not to a lot of success. I did feel a bit of improvement after talking to the therapist about my family. But not to the tune of my symptoms disappearing overnight. I tried journaling and did not find myself crying my heart out over childhood stories that used to hurt but not anymore. As I started my Sarno path 7 months ago, I realized that I got so good at repressing my emotions that used to rattle my system quite strongly, that I no longer had any of them left in me - was emotionally as flat as a bicycle tire poked by a big knife. After about 5 months, I started feeling emotions, but on and off, not to a full extent of what it used to be and no outburst that would cure me suddenly. Not that I am still hoping for an instant miracle. Everything good that came to my life came after many years of trying and hard work, never by a turn of luck - so I think I am OK with this. But sometimes I wonder whether I am doing everything right. Maybe I should try harder to hit that emotional explosion that would lead to a release of my pains and tensions? I think I am prepared to deal with anxiety and depression - which many people complain replace their physical pain. I would welcome them because I know that it is a sign of recovery, after all, I used to live with depression and anxiety for years and both went away with this last bout of TMS. Unfortunately, my recovery is very, very gradual, two steps forward - one and a half steps back. Any thoughts, advice?