Hello all. I found Sarnos work a few months ago now and have read Mind-Body Prescription a few times as well as Dr Claire Weekes Pass Through Panic. I am now doing Schubiners 28 day Unlearn Your Pain workbook. Anyways, I wanted to start a new thread to discuss all my nasty symptoms in the hopes that I can someday share my success story as well. So, looking back, I have been suffering from TMS ever since I can remember. I was the kid who was always in the nurses office and my parents came to pick me up from school a couple times a month because I was “sick”. I have been overweight my entire life and got picked on by kids at school so I think that had a lot to do with it. I developed clicking and popping and pain in my TMJ over 10 years ago and have just dealt with it. It didn’t really bother me, up until a few years ago and I will get to that later. This is a sore subject as well, but I need to put it out there because I think it’s important. I have always been super Tom-boyish. I have been told a lot that people think I’m a lesbian. Now I have nothing against it whatsoever, but I’m not! The problem is, is that I’ve never been in a serious or intimate relationship. I’m 25 going on 26 years old. I think deep down I’m really lonely even though I have a super loving family. Anyways (man this is going to be really really long) after I graduated high school in 2011, I set off to college about two hours from home. I was sooo excited. I was planning on majoring in Environmental Sciences. Turns out, my roommate was super shy. I am shy at first, but very outgoing once I get to know you. So I had a lot of trouble getting to know people at school and was under a lot of stress. By the middle of the first semester, I was super home sick and was going home every weekend. I hated it there. I also started to develop some stomach pain that started to get very severe. I was getting depressed, I saw a few doctors and had tons of tests, to check for everything including very invasive tests in my abdominal region. You guessed it, they didn’t find anything! So I told my parents that I wanted to quit school and come home for a semester to try to figure out what was wrong with me. Once I was home, eventually after a few months, all my symptoms went away. So I got a job and eventually went back to college and got an associates degree. This brings me to around 2015. I had gotten an amazing job at a small business in my field after graduating. I worked for a few months and lived at home, but I desperately wanted to move out. I couldn’t stand the thought of renting a house and throwing my money away, so I eventually saved enough money and bought a house later that year. Everything was great, at least in my conscious brain. Looking back now, it was all very overwhelming, and I was still lonely. I put on a happy face everyday, and dealt with everything that came along, but I wanted more! I was barely getting by with students loans and my mortgage, but I did. In the middle of October of 2015, almost exactly 3 months after moving into my house, I was at work. I ran outside to get the mail and upon coming back to my desk I had a dizziness attack. It wasn’t vertigo, but everything was moving around me. I ended up at the emergency room. To back up about a week earlier I had a very mild head trauma that didn’t cause any symptoms at the time. At the ER I was told I had post concussion syndrome and that the dizziness would go away in a few weeks. So I took the week off and eventually, my symptoms got better. They never totally went away, but they were tollerable. Then in December 2015, I slowly started to develop neck pain. I was seeing a chiropractor throughout this entire time, and he was hopeful that he could help with the dizziness and pain. Well folks this is where my life turned upside down. My symptoms just got worse and worse over the next three years. I saw over two hundred doctors of all different specialties. I did PT and VRT to no avail. I finally saw a world renowned ENT at The Mayo Clinic in Rochester MN and he diagnosed me with Cervicogenic dizziness and PPPD(Persistent Postural Perceptual Dizziness). What a relief, I finally had a diagnosis! Well, the only fix for both these issues was PT and VRT. So I tried both of them again with no help! I finally said to myself , you need to do something major because I was barely surviving. I was going home each night after work and sitting on the couch crying. I put my house up for sale less that two years after buying it. I’m still so sad about it because my independence is gone. I moved back in with my parents and it has all gone downhill. I started seeing a specialty NUCCA chiropractor. He was very positive that he could help relieve me of my symptoms. He took XRays of my neck and it was in bad shape. I had loss of my cervical curve, bone spurs, disk degeneration, and severe atlas misalignment he told me I have the neck of a 60 year old. So I started seeing him a couple times a week and my neck pain finally started getting better. I also started treatment with a very prestigious TMJ disorder specialist and was addressing my jaw issues. My neck pain was much better after about 6 months. But the dizziness is still sticking around. I haven’t driven in about a year and am working part time most of that from home. My parents are having to drive me around to appointments and work and I F***ING HATE that! I am sooo independent and I love that they are able to help me out, but it is such a drain on my self image. I have developed horrible anxiety and some depression that comes and goes. I have a large family that has get togethers all the time, and I never go anymore because I worry that I will get dizzy and someone will have to take me home. I don’t really know how to end this, and I will probably just keep adding to it to benefit myself and hopefully also others who need to read others stories. I having trouble doing the work. I know that I need to do it to get better and I look at Schubiners book multiple times a day sitting next to my bed, but I only have been picking it up two or three times a week. I hope this thread will help push me more! If you made it this far, I thank you very much for reading all this.