I saw this week a video of Joshua Boom about quantum healing. While watching this video I got palpitations, headache collywobbles. and nausea. I ask myself what was happening, but I didn't find an answer. I stopped watching this video and all the symptoms went away. I was directly normal again. This reminds me of something that happened about 10 years ago. One night I was alone at home I became very ill. About 20.00 hours I got palpitations and became very afraid of it. I was afraid of going down. I sat down and try to relax. Then my belly started to rumble and I also had the feeling to throw up. After a while I crawled to the toilet and it all game out. While I was puking I did it in my pants. I had cleaned myself and then it started again. I felt so dirty. I was so afraid, afraid of going to die all alone. But on the other side I was glad to be alone, because I look like hell. I sweated like a pig, was deathly pale and full of shit. This took about 4 hours, then I felt release and after cleaning myself I went to bed. When my boyfriend came home I told him what was happened. I did not told him the reason, because I was very ashamed. The reason: About 20 years ago I had a very violent relation which lasted four weeks. It was the greatest relation I ever had. After 4 weeks he decided to go back to his wife to completed his marriage. (he is still completing his mariage) I totaly collapsed, suffered a severe depression. From everything to nothing. He sometimes came by to see how I was doing and then we had sex. In the meantime I had a new friend and I don't wanted sex anymore with my ex. But he still keeps coming. So, 10 years ago my ex came by and we kissed. I disgusted him. This was in the afternoon, that evening I became ill. I felt very guilty to my boyfriend. I have the feeling that the symptoms I had that night originate of DISGUST. I was so disgusted by the situation, by my ex that I threw everything out. Was the video of Joshua Bloom a trigger? The more I write of read or watch videos, the more I can release. With love, Rozie.