Things are good. I feel a huge improvement in my fatigue symptoms. I was able to travel back home and see my family, a feat which felt terrifying just a few weeks ago. My musculoskeletal pain has also gotten slightly better, but it's still there and has started moving around. I feel that my attitude towards it has completely changed though, and I was able to go swimming twice (yay!) and stay calm when the pain flared up. I feel confident in the diagnosis, and have found journaling to be extremely helpful. I've had multiple emotional breakthroughs while writing and have been able to cry or scream in rage. Journaling has also been a source of insight; for example, I've realized that a desire to prove myself to my parents is a big source of my perfectionism. The new anxiety (mentioned in a previous post) is still here and it's tough to deal with at times. I think I was close to having a panic attack twice now. I do believe it's a sign the treatment is working, that it's my brain trying a different strategy now that I've rendered the pain ineffective. I'm learning to manage the anxiety better and I feel my relationship to it is improving. A doubt I have: how do I know this improvement isn't part of the ups and downs I've experienced in the past? A concern I have: I'm planning to gradually restart the bodyweight strength program I haven't been able to do in years. How will I be able to differentiate TMS pain from a genuine danger signal telling me I'm going too far with an exercise?