So I thought I was on the road to a pain free existence But this pain flare has lingered since last week after spending several days pain free. Its amazing how one thought can turn into a downward spiral if you don't catch it in time. The pain also changed to a very sharp sensation (nothing palpable, just a perception) in my forearm and thumb extensors. This set off the doubt of this being TMS, and the ensuing fear and anxiety that followed was a bit much this week. Despite I've just kept moving ahead. I had another massage client scheduled today which was creating a lot of fear and anxiety. But I told myself if this is TMS, a psychological condition, then there is no reason why doing a deep tissue massage would make my pain flare. While I was doing the massage, any time pain came up, I just refocused on what I was doing. I ended up in no more pain, and no less pain than before I started the massage. So then I decided to go to yoga right after the massage. Did a pretty intensive workout that had a lot of wrist extension which should have spiked my pain. But it didn't. So now the sharp pain is just there, and although it's not a pain free day or week, I'm feeling mentally and emotionally stronger than I have been the last few days. I'm feeling less attached to the pain, and any sort of negative consequence that could come about from using my forearm. Its funny because the last few months, anytime I used my arm or moved my thumb, I would have a pain flare. Our minds will associate physical movement with physical pain, and continue to associate the pain with an actual physical injury. So will just keep doing my meditation and affirmations. I know I will probably continue to experience pain, fear and anxiety but am feeling less attached to it all. I hope all my fellow TMSers out there are finding relief with their suffering. Sending you all Aloha.