Looking back now, I am realizing that about 2 years ago I started losing emotions. They kind of faded away, slowly. Maybe except for fear and disgust. Joy was first gone out the window. Sadness followed. Then surprise. Then anger. My CRPS started about a year ago, with little tinglings in the right little finger. Chiropractor fixed it. Then, few months later, it came back with one middle finger. And now both my arms are painful, muscles and tendons stiff, I can't tie my shoes, or floss, or handwrite, or drive more than 15 minutes without stopping and resting, and there are many more things I can't do anymore. Since I started pursuing the TMS route, I have been slowly getting rid of fear of my symptoms and pushing for more activity with my hands. I keep pushing my hands to do more things. But my hands keep pushing back. I win with one activity but then lose another. And it is getting worse. I feel emotionally flat. Even my night time anxiety lost color. I wake up in the middle of the night and look for emotion behind my anxiety - but I feel nothing. I would trade my stiffness in hands and arms for more pain or feeling angry, sad, anxious or guilty - but I can't get there. Will I find my emotions? How?