Desperate

@mbsgal85 Right it is a long journey and I expect that the dystonia, etc will be a tendency that I have for my life. However, with really only "doing the work" since May 1st I've made huge improvements. Even though the flares come (dystonia, pain, tinnitus, itching, whatever) I recognize them for what they truly are, and I can address them how they need to be addressed. What I used to think was a flare up or worsening of symptoms was more evidence of a terrible destiny that I had with an awful neurological disorder that ruined everything I loved - with few successful treatments and I would share the same fate as the awful people who told me I was screwed. None of that is true. I've proven that to myself time and time again. I am not putting any time line on my recovery, I have one in my mind that I think I will do just because I think that's what going to happen. Like it's just a feeling I have. It's long. But I also know that the overall trajectory will be in the right direction. I have felt better in the last few weeks and more like a normal person, not even my old self, a new and better self, than I have in the last 18 months which was full of hell and despair.