angelic333
Peer Supporter
I believe in tms. I read The divided Mind several years ago because I had people in my life with chronic aches and pain, getting all kinds of treatments etc. It took a while for me to realize I suffered from it as well. Not with back pain, but with depression. I suffered from depression much of my life, different levels of it, took medicine for a while that didn't work, went to the psychiatrist, Counsellors, etc. Tried inner child work that was too uncomfortable to handle. And I felt like reaching out and soothing the wounded child was not authentic, that's not what really happened, can't change the past. I finally got out of depression by just deciding to not be depressed anymore. And it went away. So I just became nauseous all the time instead. I visited this chat room about a month ago and then again last weekend, to validate this is tms. I did an exercise/mediation on Sunday that I saw elsewhere on the internet, instead of "healing the inner child" release yourself from the fantasy about how you wish you life had been. It was a mediation to find that uncomfortable feeling, then write out your fantasy life, read it, honor it, burn it, bury, give it a funeral so to speak and then just be with what is. Sounded like a great idea. I buried the ashes among some pretty flowers, marked it with a stone and cried for a while, no nausea. Sadness but not the black hole of depression. It worked! Until yesterday when I was more nauseous than ever, cried and cried and never got out of bed.
Now what? So here I am, starting this SEP PROGRAM. This isn't going to stop in a day just because I am releasing myself what never was.
What would life without tms mean to me? Freedom. Energy. Motivation. Clear mind. Smell things without feeling sick. Right now it's like early pregnancy: nausea, fatigue. And no, I am not pregnant.
I will do the steps. It know it's true. I will let it unfold .
Now what? So here I am, starting this SEP PROGRAM. This isn't going to stop in a day just because I am releasing myself what never was.
What would life without tms mean to me? Freedom. Energy. Motivation. Clear mind. Smell things without feeling sick. Right now it's like early pregnancy: nausea, fatigue. And no, I am not pregnant.
I will do the steps. It know it's true. I will let it unfold .