I have a lot of motivation to stick with the program and really work on recovering. But I have to overcome two habits on mind: one, I think I already know everything I'm supposed to be uncovering from the past and I have felt those feelings, there's nothing new here. Second, what good does it do to dwell on things? I know people who are constantly carrying on about the injustices of their childhoods at boring lengths and I think, move on, don't live in that aggrieved place. But I have a lot of regret that I can't seem to shake . . and shame and rage at getting older. This was not supposed to happen!